sexter

i just watched dexter for the first time, [yes... i do plan on getting every penny out of my late blooming cable subscription!] and it was rather fascinating. i just love how it shows what he is thinking and how passionate he is about blood, more so than anything else. how he is so hollow inside, in terms of emotions, but has a thirst for killing the killer. it's pretty deep, dude. he is super intelligent and it made me realize that intelligence really turns me on. i guess it always has. it's funny- girls think it's all the rage to be overly sexual in a completely mindless, typical way. i guess some would say that i can fit into this category and i wouldn't disagree. i can be rather impetuous, as my libido is ginormous. yet- somehow there is more that gets my blood flowing then pure a primal sex drive. i find things sexy which many people may not. i find articulation sexy but, i also like shyness [probably more] . i think epic wit is hella sexy, as is sarcasm and humor. in general, i need mental stimulation in some form. you could have a body of a greek god but if there are no lights on up top- it may be hard for me to be into you. of course, physical attraction does come into play [don't be a snob- everyone needs it on some level] but i guess- i want the total package. it's so fucking hard to find. believe me.

there is nothing wrong with being sexual. i am. and i don't feel bad for it- ever. i think that being slutty is another thing. i like people who have sex appeal without trying too hard. anyone can be a slut or slutty. it's not really that hard or that impressive to me. but for me it's a lot more compelling when people are a bit more intelligent about it. i really like having an engaging conversation with someone where you can really step into someones mind and life. i love the sparkle people get in their eye when they talk about something they are passionate about. i guess that excitement is contagious- well at least to me it is. and... its really hot!

dexter is very unique. i think that is why all woman throw themselves at him. i think that mysterious element is intriguing. i have always been drawn towards mysterious people. people who tell a story with their eyes. people who see outside the norm. i know dexter is only a show- but he kinda seems like good date material. call it strange but- i understand people that think differently. i think its sexy. his level of intelligence is super erotic to me. mental sex if you will. too bad he isn't real. fuck.

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